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    Thanks, the only word I can't direct to Jen =] and Joel=P . Actually I have a real fun time chatting with them, they soon offline and my ex boyfriend online with his MSN name popped up. The nightmare begins.. As I expected, he doesn't listen to me except himself. When he asked," Can you be my valentine?" I can know deep in his heart, he's minding his own face. I talked alot to avoid the question but he still pull me back by saying yes/no, I don't wanna hear other things. The reason I couldn't answer is because...

if I say yes, I'll hurt myself and my beloved dad again because he couldn't be as convincing and lovely like last time. 

if I say no, I'll definitely hurt him. Even though he's my friend now, I still care about his face and feelings. I don't want him to make the wrong decision and break his heart.

As I expected, he offline because he's so fed up of me not giving the answer. He said goodbye but I can't type anything because at that time, I was crying for the very last time I do for him, I guess. Then, I sms with Jen and Joel to tell them how I really feel. They really are good friends to me because they confide me and this needle which is pricking my heart is damn hurt and pain. I have a sleepness night because I keep thinking about what he said that breaks my heart into pieces. 

I wish I could just forget you just like this...      

Today suppose to be a holiday for the mid-sem examination. However, I've got plan today and got up real early to my friend's hostel at myplace. Later, when I am editing the assignment, my laptop shut down automatically because it don't have much battery left. Call me unlucky! I soon decide to swim with my friend, Jen. She was like,"Are you serious?". I replied,"Yeah, of course." I wore her shorts and a pink T-shirt as well as her housemate's goggle. She did advice me that the swimming pool is of different depth at different section. However, I thought that it won't be so deep so I swim towards the deep area without realising how deep it was. When she was floating there and by the time I reach her side, I gasped for air and experience drowning but I was laughing to shake off my nervousness. I then gulped and water continuosly go in my mouth. It was like a near-death experience but my friend came to the rescue and I'm alive XD. Later on, she perform her swimming style wonderfully in front of me, makes me such a loser but at the same time, I'm proud of her, man.

We saw Fiona, Jen's friend on the way back. She was pretty as usual. Then, we went out for lunch at the McD. I ordered take away but accompany them for awhile until the time reaches 12.45pm because I need to go to my sis's school. On the way to her school, guess what. I saw Kee Ang, my college mate. He went across the road and we talked abit and he asked,"Have you eaten?" Then, I said," Yeah." And this eventually lead to us to bid goodbye to each other. I keep on walking until a motorcycle drove across the road and I notice the cyclist said,"Hello!" to me. So I just smiled back. I know he was talking to me as there is no people around that area.

When I reach my sister's school, I ask the usual question,"How's your day?" Then, she replied with amusement,"Oh, my pet brother asked about you and I was like omg, why you're so popular?" I was like, "Huh, what do you mean?" After that, I realize I've understand what she said. When she engaged in a conversation with her pet brother, he asked why you sister don't want to find a boyfriend. Then, my sister said,"I also don't know why." So, he replied,"Whoa, she's so pretty also don't want to find a boyfriend." So flattered =P

I hate her so much. Luckily, I got some friends who still concern me and advice me about it. Anyway, I'm so nervous about tomorrow. Actually, I didn't really care. Haha, Happy Valentine's Day to all couples and singles, jiayou!

I almost forgot...

This is a valentine gift from a guy to his girlfriend during recess. My sister saw the guy kneeled down in front of the girl and gave her the bunch of flowers. So romantic, right?